Saturday, October 30, 2010
A Saturday Like This...
It is cold and cloudy outside. Our schedule is completely empty (except for working out). I get to wear my pajamas for as long as I want and I get to spend the day with John!
I hope you are enjoying your Saturday as much as I am enjoying mine!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Enjoying Every Step
Truth: I am all about the results.
Let me explain. I do a lot of things in life only because of the results.
Example Number 1: Hiking
While many hike because it is a great way to stay active while being outside, I hike because I want to know what the view is like from up there. Needless to say, when I hike a whole mountain only to a cloud – the day is not a happy one.
Example Number 2: Exercising
I always wanted to be one of those devoted Seattleites that go on a run even if the city is flooding due to rain. Really, I wish I was that dedicated to my body and health. Instead, I complain that I have to go outside every single day to exercise. I daydream about living in a world where we would be naturally fit. The only reason I exercise is because I know it is good for me. If you read Brain Rules you will know what I am talking about. Well, I also like what I see way more when I am exercising…
Example number 3: Cleaning
I have a friend who loves washing the dishes. I don’t understand why anyone would enjoy washing the dishes. I only clean because I like the final result. I like it when my home smells clean, when all the laundry is done and folded. I like it when I can see my own reflection on the wooden floor. I like it when I step into a bathtub that has no soap scum on the sides. But I certainly do not like cleaning any of these things.
Are you beginning to see a pattern here? Really, I am learning that I miss out on many opportunities because all I care about is the final result of whatever it is that I am doing.
So, it is time to make some changes in the attitude department of my life. I am going to work on finding joy in every step of life.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Four Years Ago
Here are some pieces of the email I received:
Hey Goose,
I'm getting off work early today … Do you have time to get some dinner? … Just thought it'd be cool to hang out for a bit before core group.
See ya!
Shotgun
*Just so you know Goose and Shotgun are our Camp names. John and I met when we both signed up to be camp counselors in Alaska. His camp name was Shotgun and mine was Goose.
**Also, I will include that I read this email while with a group of friends from an accounting class (We were preparing for an accounting competition). I pretty much read this email and left my computer open while I went to the bathroom. When I came back, my friend Anna had replied for me saying that I would love to grab some dinner together.
So, I ended up going out to dinner with John that day. Before then, we were friends and had spent a lot of time together – but always in a group setting. This dinner was going to be our first time together alone.
To my surprise, John took me to a cute Italian restaurant and proceeded to tell me how he enjoyed spending time with me. I started thinking that this dinner was a bit like a date…
…I was nervous and couldn’t really eat. Finally John looked at me in the eyes and told me he wanted to be more than just a friend I see every now and then. He said he wanted to really get to know me and asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend!
I am pretty sure I could hear my heart pounding. I had liked John for a while and pretty much all my friends knew that. However, I didn’t think he had a clue. I didn’t even think he had ever ‘noticed’ me.
I told him that being his ‘girlfriend’ sounded wonderful…and the rest is history.
So, we are having dinner at that same cute Italian restaurant tonight to celebrate our last four years together!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Rahm Family
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Work Out Update #4
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Autumn Hike
Monday, October 18, 2010
Who's your Master?
Invictus is inspiring and above all, I love its message of forgiveness and reconciliation. I admire Mandela and all that he has done for his country and for this world. I love how his message parallel’s the teachings of Jesus Christ.
However, the more I think about what the poem ‘Invictus’ actually means, the more I realize that its message is far, very far from Jesus’ teachings. As a matter of fact, one cannot be a follower of Christ and follow this poem’s mission.
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
But I cannot choose to serve two masters. I cannot be my own master and invite Jesus to be a part of my life. I must give up one or the other.
From experience, I know that I make a horrible master. I often lack wisdom, love, grace, mercy, discernment… and more often than not I am selfish, jealous and prideful. Recognizing my weaknesses and failures, I came to the decision long ago that I cannot be the master of my fate and the captain of my soul.
Here is a poem that better explains the reality of my life:
Bright as the sun from pole to pole,
I thank the God I know to be,
For Christ – the Conqueror of my soul.
I would not wince nor cry aloud.
Under the rule which men call chance,
My head, with joy, is humbly bowed.
That Life with Him and His the Aid,
That, spite the menace of the years,
Keeps, and will keep me unafraid.
He cleared from punishment the scroll.
Christ is the Master of my fate!
Christ is the Captain of my soul!
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...
Thursday, October 14, 2010
A Pride Issue
I just finished reading Spiritual Leadership by J. Oswald Sanders. Every single page of this book brought along with it some challenges. The second to last chapter was all about the perils of leadership and not surprisingly, the first one mentioned was ‘pride.’
The author points out that “the victim of pride is often the least aware of the sin.”
Sanders also provided three tests that help us identify the problem:
The test of precedence: How do we react when another is selected for the position we wanted to fill?When another is promoted in our place? When another’s gifts seem greater than our own?
The test of sincerity: In our moments of honest self-reflection, we often admit to problems and weakness. How do we feel when others identify the same problem within us?
Test of criticism: Does criticism lead to immediate resentment and self-justification? Do we rush to criticize the critic?
These tests brought to the surface the fact that I tend to be a proud person at heart. I tend to be jealous of others that have accomplished what I want to accomplish. I tend to get hurt if others point out failures in my character.
I tend to become defensive when others criticize me.
I am more aware than ever that I need to pray for a humble heart.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
Your attitude should be the same as that
of Christ Jesus:
Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God
something to be grasped,
but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
Philippians 2:3-11
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Work Out Update #3
I never thought this day would come, but I am happy to announce that I am no longer feeling horribly sore! It is nice to see how my body has adapted to the exercises in a relatively short period of time.
This past week I was able to increase the intensity level by adding a couple of pounds to the dumbbells! Actually, I was not excited about adding the weight. But I made the mistake of telling John that I was feeling so much better now that the dumbbells don't feel as heavy as they used to. John looked at me and smiled. He then told me I should add more weight to all my exercises since they are becoming easy. My excitement disappeared immediately.
Also, since I decided to be honest with you all in regards to the reality this workout routine, I have to confess that John and I didn’t do the whole exercise yesterday. We had company over for dinner and we knew we would not have enough time to do our whole exercise before dinner. So, we headed over to the gym and did as much as we could in the short time we were there. After dinner we got lazy and did not go back to finish the workout. I should also mention that John wanted to go back to finish it, but that was pretty much the last thing I wanted to do. I promised John that we are going to finish yesterday’s exercise today (after we finish today’s exercise).
Well, that is it for now. I hope to feel really inspired to get all that work done tonight.
Bokeh Fanatic
If you asked me anything about bokeh a year ago, I would have looked at you and pretended I knew what you were talking about. That is what I do. I pretend I understand and run home to do a quick Google search that hopefully clarifies all things.
Anyways, since diving into photography I have learned quite a bit - and a good bokeh has become a favorite. Seriously, I have a big soft spot for shallow depth of field.
If you are not a bokeh fanatic, here is a quick lesson: small f-stop = wide aperture = shallow depth of field = lots of bokeh. I don't actually get it either. But it not only works, it looks great!
Below is a visual. Do you see how the wheatgrass is in focus but the whole background is a blur. That, my friend is what I am talking about. Beautiful!
PS. If I am not wearing contacts or glasses, bokeh is what I get to see everywhere. This may be the only beautiful thing about having bad eyesight!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Learning Takes Time
Friday, October 8, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
What's Your Color Personality?
However, I secretly admire people who wear bold colors. I even admire people who paint their kitchens bright turquoise! I just don't think I would have the guts to do the same.
But if someone asked me what is my favorite color, I would most likely say blue or green. Or even better, a combination of both.
So, this morning, I took the "What's you color personality?" test at the Better Homes and Gardens website. After answering a couple of questions, here is the response I got:
It sounds like the hue you most relate to is green -- the color most evocative of nature. Adjectives such as kind, gentle, and contemplative likely describe you. You enjoy being involved with your neighbors and coworkers, but you also require plenty of time to yourself to recharge.You are social yet introverted, and modern but not trendy. Surround yourself with your signature color to create a restful, soothing environment. From sage to hunter, green can work well in virtually every room of your house. Use it generously to create a haven you'll love coming home to.
So, it sounds like green is my color! So far, I have green walls in a bathroom, green bedding, green candles and some green plants in my living room...
Monday, October 4, 2010
Work Out Update #2
While I still struggle to breathe while running, I KNOW I am getting better at it. I have been pushing myself on the treadmill and I can run longer than I used to. Also, the muscles are becoming visible! Those who know me, know that I like muscles. By that, I don't mean that I like the body builder kind of body. I am talking about a toned body that looks healthy and active.
The soreness is still there, but John was mentioning yesterday that he is starting to feel much more energized - even when his body is tired. That is what exercise does to the brain! As John Medina would say:
"Exercise is Miracle Gro to the brain."
So, our bodies and our brains have been benefitting from this new exercise routine and I encourage you to start some kind od exercise routine if you have not yet created a routine of your own.
Got Apple?
This was quite the task! We had people assigned to cutting apples, people assigned to stirring the cooking apples, people assigned to making apple sauce with two kitchen aid mixers, people assigned to making apple butter...you get my point.
The kitchen was a mess, we were hot and tired and the house smelled 100% apple!